Amelia's Birthday
Today would have been her 25th birthday. It's so strange to me because on one hand it doesn't seem like any of this is real, and it never really happened. But on the other hand, it also hurts so bad sometimes I just want to roll over and cry.
December has been a strange month all together. Between her birthday, Christmas, and my birthday, it just hasn't felt quite right. On top of that, I went and saw The Hobbit last night.
Why does that matter you ask? Amelia loved Lord of the Rings, and she pretty much brainwashed me into it as well. We would always talk about movies when we were together, and inevitably The Hobbit would get brought up. She was really looking forward to it. This may sound strange, but many months ago, I was thinking about Amelia and all the things that were going to happen eventually, and it dawned on me that there was a very real chance that she wasn't going to get to see The Hobbit. I instantly broke down at this thought because it broke my heart that she probably wouldn't get to see something that she loved so dearly.
So I saw the movie, and I thought about her a lot during it. I think she would have liked it a lot, but I always enjoyed her comments (negative or otherwise) on various aspects of this movie, or any movie for that matter. So if you're debating on whether to go see it or not, just go ahead and do it for Amelia.
It was also quite an experience seeing her tombstone for the first time. I can't really explain the odd mixture of sadness and bewilderment that it gave me. Even with everything that I saw and went through, it's just like, "Wow this can't really be hers." I'm going to guess that doesn't make much sense to someone who hasn't lost someone very close to them; then again maybe it doesn't make sense to anyone.
As I sit here listening to your Celtic Woman CD's (drawing more inspiration, and they sound strangely like a Lord of the Rings soundtrack at times) I just want to say how much I love and miss you. And that Mya is getting so big, and she is so smart. And I just wish she could have known you for a little longer.
December has been a strange month all together. Between her birthday, Christmas, and my birthday, it just hasn't felt quite right. On top of that, I went and saw The Hobbit last night.
Why does that matter you ask? Amelia loved Lord of the Rings, and she pretty much brainwashed me into it as well. We would always talk about movies when we were together, and inevitably The Hobbit would get brought up. She was really looking forward to it. This may sound strange, but many months ago, I was thinking about Amelia and all the things that were going to happen eventually, and it dawned on me that there was a very real chance that she wasn't going to get to see The Hobbit. I instantly broke down at this thought because it broke my heart that she probably wouldn't get to see something that she loved so dearly.
So I saw the movie, and I thought about her a lot during it. I think she would have liked it a lot, but I always enjoyed her comments (negative or otherwise) on various aspects of this movie, or any movie for that matter. So if you're debating on whether to go see it or not, just go ahead and do it for Amelia.
It was also quite an experience seeing her tombstone for the first time. I can't really explain the odd mixture of sadness and bewilderment that it gave me. Even with everything that I saw and went through, it's just like, "Wow this can't really be hers." I'm going to guess that doesn't make much sense to someone who hasn't lost someone very close to them; then again maybe it doesn't make sense to anyone.
As I sit here listening to your Celtic Woman CD's (drawing more inspiration, and they sound strangely like a Lord of the Rings soundtrack at times) I just want to say how much I love and miss you. And that Mya is getting so big, and she is so smart. And I just wish she could have known you for a little longer.
Happy Birthday
Victor, not sure what to say just know I wanted to say something after reading your heartfelt message. It moved my heart seems like the best thing to say.
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